My friends and family have told me that they think I am brave, courageous, hopeful. But I have my moments where I am certainly afraid or intimidated of change. My baby's blanket was so very soft and warm and yellow - what could be more comforting? Satin lining and of course, no idea of the material - just snuggly soft. I loved my blanket and remember thinking that pretty late in childhood. I didn't want to sleep one night without that blanket in my arms and hand but, in all honesty, I don't know when I gave it up. I just know myself and the way I was raised - and that one night, I just tried - and didn't look back.
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In all honesty, I didn't want to write the book (or blog) because what if my stories were only funny with my friends...? What if my life isn't that interesting to anyone else...? Putting a pen to paper (or keys to word/wall) would mean something. If my stories aren't funny, it may be that I suck at dating! Can't have that - my family would have been right for years (I love you 'rents but committed to being honest here and I think you worry every day that I am getting in my own way... ME TOO). But life is too short to live in fear, so why not seize the day, TODAY!
I am my biggest critic so actually posting regularly will be a miracle! I write, re-write, edit, revise and compose another draft then proof. :-) Type A and proud of it! Another big challenge will be how much to share and going for it. I have always been an open book - literally heart on sleeve. But without being too sentimental (okay now that's just silly and likely to happen often), I'm only perfect by God's love and grace so if I have a tupo (hee hee) here, that's OKAY! So I'm going to (try to) write each day - which will perfectly fill my Lenten void (due to vow) of no t.v. - and see where we are in a couple of months. And maybe discern some things too along the way.
So this Jane says... Carpe Diem. We all have times in our lives where we run out of steam, think we can't dream or make a change, attain an old goal, or even set a new one. Our "ways" are too set for change. Or are they? All my life I was told "you won't know unless you try." So if one of my dreams is to write - I can't believe I have a dream that I am acting on! - then there is no time like the present.